So Blessed!

‘I want to know You

Let Your Spirit overwhelm me

Let Your presence overtake my heart’

‘It’s joy unspeakable and it’s full of glory’

The past week has just been a whirlwind. The past couple days seem like a couple weeks. Yesterday alone seemed like it was a couple days long. I feel like I’ve been on a faith journey with God the past few days. I mean, all of life is based on faith, but the past couple days has just been like ‘ok God, I know how You’ve shown up before so I know I can trust You, but I just have no idea what this is going to look like’. There are still so many things up in the air, but my God is so faithful and glorious in all He does.

I need a job. I was perfect for the new Panera opening up in Wethersfield, so I applied and everything, played phone tag with a woman to set up an interview, and had an interview wednesday. They said they would call me thursday to set up a second interview, but they didn’t call. Friday morning I got a call from a different woman, well we played phone tag back and forth a couple times again and when I finally got a hold of her, they offered me the job but I couldn’t come to a mandatory training session saturday because of a visit to UNH. They pretty much said, well that’s it, we can’t take you then.  As soon as I hung up I asked God, ‘Is this something I’m supposed to fight for? Am I supposed to be pursuing this strongly?’ I didn’t get a voice from Heaven or anything but I had this strange reassurance and peace and thoughts that I’d ignored earlier in the week came back and I knew it was ok. I was supposed to be a UNH saturday.  There were so many other things that worked out in a way only God can orchestrate and I can’t even explain them all. This is so beyond basic, there is so much more. But anyways, I had this overwhelming sense of this is what is supposed to happen that I even had a hard time being upset about not getting the job, and I need a job.

So we went to UNH yesterday, and it was the College of Health and Human Services accepted students day, which I went to last year by myself and attended the Outdoor Education info group. This year I decided to go to the Social Work info group because I’m switching majors, and my parents came. On the drive up I was just pleading with God that the day would be worth it, that there would be purpose and I specifically asked for renewal, new joy, new life.  Funny thing is, God kept pointing out the new buds and leaves on the trees and speaking to my heart about how there will be renewal and new life.  He’s so good with encouragement! Needless to say, meeting with the head of the social work department was so great. I got to talk to her personally about some things I did overseas and explain a bit of my heart behind going into social work and then she had me share with the whole group. What the heck God! haha! So now I actually know about the social work program I’m going into and again feel so much peace about the campus. 

I made plans to meet with one of the girls I’ll be rooming with next year and her mom at a sweet pizza place in Portsmouth and I was so nervous. I had no idea what she was like, I just knew that God had clearly orchestrated our rooming situation and again I was just trusting Him. I had no idea what He had in store for me. They came and whatever expectations I had were tossed out the window and to sum it up, I feel like I’ve know Mallory for years. Besides the fact that she has a heart for the world, especially Africa and a huge as heart for God, her parents are missionaries with Campus Crusade for Christ. The whole story behind her family and when I’ve met the before and all the ridiculous connections there are is just so big, it’s too much to write out. God loves to do things like this and then just laugh when we start to make a couple connections. He seriously has a crazy sense of humor!! I’m so blessed to have Mallory as a roommate, and to pretty much have a second family and home up in New Hampshire. (Of course, I haven’t even met my other roommate yet, Gwen, but she’s a sister in Christ as well and I know that she’s going to be a huge blessing as well!)

This does no justice to the past couple days. None. I can’t even put into words how good God is. I was asking God to just show His glory this weekend and He couldn’t have revealed more.  You might remind me that I didn’t get the job, but the peace God’s given me about that is even more glorious than the joy of making money. 

Today was just, such a sabbath. A day to just revel in God and who He is. Wind was fantastic and the message was so good, something God speaks so much to my heart about. Testifying to who He is and what He does, being a witness and that’s our job, to speak out and declare what God has done and is doing; the Holy Spirit changes people. So good. Merge tonight was incredible.  Worship was 2 songs, and it took up 45 minutes. It was just pressing in and pressing in and blessing God and pressing in even more. His presence was so tangible in the room, it was intense. What a blessing it is to have the privilege of becoming sons and daughters of the most high God and getting to worship Him! What a blessing it is to get to know Him more and see more of His glory revealed!  What a blessing it is to fall more in love with my Savior and my God who created me and has rich as plans for me!! I really can’t think of anything better than to live a life of praise, a life that just shows the glory of our God. What greater privilege is there than to be able to testify to who God is and what He’s done in your life? He is so good!

I feel like a big part of our job as the body of Christ is to testify, to witness to what He's doing and what He's done. I guess that's why I'm still writing on this blog, and while I'll keep writing.  It keeps me accountable to sharing how He's moving in my life, what He's teaching me and revealing to me. He could be doing sweet as stuff and I could be like, 'cool God!' but when I share it, I get to share about the goodness of my God but hopefully you are also encouraged to look at your life and recognize the good things He does for you! Even if you can't see anything good in the physical, just think: He is always with you. Even if He didn't do one more good thing in your life, if He stopped blessing you, He would still be worthy of more than a lifetime full of praise. That's how good He is! I don't know, it just makes me want to praise Him with my life and bring glory to His name, and that means testifying to what He does for me and in me. Plus, when you remember what you know He's done for you, it's so easy to remember His goodness and just praise Him and follow Him!

I’ve found that God often highlights lines from songs that really speak to what He’s doing in my heart and in my life, and the lyrics at the top really just speak sooo much.  This week has just been joy unspeakable, full of God’s glory.  I just am constantly refilled with His joy and His glory is all over how He’s been moving things in my life and working things out. Amazing, absolutely amazing.  The other lyrics are one of the songs we sang tonight, probably for about a half hour, just pressing in. I’ll post the song below. It’s so powerful, let it move you. Let the Spirit speak to your heart about knowing God! You never know Him completely, He is always revealing more of Himself, and He is always worthy of praise and worship.  There is no greater joy than to worship Him! Seriously, just press in, His presence is such a good place to be, and an even better place to stay. God is good!

I do know God has something for me in terms of working, I'm just not sure what it is, but I would definitely appreciate prayer to find where He has for me to be! Still pressing in, listening and searching for a job!